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23o5pm
well. today was the first day i worked in expo.
and you know , i almost lost a precious frend, angeline
i was kinda angry that wen ever i ask angeline a question , her reply was jus like jonathan.. meaning a fed up reply..
not only today . but also recent days.. so i vented my anger on mum..
and i din know i sent a message full of fark to angeline on accidential.
thn she was like quite angry with me.
but luckly that she wasnt angry with me anymore.
but she still act kinda weird towards me .. cos the trust is not there any more ler.. not as strong as b4 ler..
i know i've done wrong .. so sowie angeline..
i wont do that again lers..
well. there's another issue..
thats jonanthan..
well.. ok. today i mean jus only , i messaged him ' yo!! sail back ler hor? tired ma? still intend not to talk to me ar? '
no response.
few mins later
' hahas. no reaply means it all ba. dunno why you still ignoring me. treat me as frend also a no ma?happy one month ba. tc '
no response again..
and i think , i really dun hav to wait anymore ler..
its like.. hais..
i dunno either.. jus feel that its non od my business anymore ler..
i am not a frend to him either..
what's worng ? i dun understand...
if i really am so irratating.. jus say can? dun hide.
why must u treat me this way? am i really that ...
hais..
suan ler..
wait for u also a waste of time..
might as well go accept him..
fark all those message i sent u .
mushy till wanna die..
oh ya.. hate me for all u wan ba.. i dun care ler..
since u wanna do it this way, so be it ba..
i dun wanna care anymore lers.
and dun ever wish to see u again.
or hear from you.
u know what? u are a shit to my eyes..
ur attitude really makes me annoyed..
no matter whta it is.. i am not ur frend anymore ler.. and i know.
so , i dun care ler..
i know there's a girl in ur heart alrdy thats y u are treating me this way..
so nvm ba.. its ok.. since u wanna made things this way . suan ler..
anyways pple , changing my number soon. so update u again yar!
i wanna change, i demand a change!!
2 mins ago i sent this via frendster :
'jonathan,
really dunno what's wrong and what went wrong. and i dun wish to know either . cos i know its too late.. i kow wen i asked for the break up u were very angry with me. but the anger lasted so long? and i know that . i dun really worth taht place in ur heart and so so u care for me anymore lers.. ou dun even leave a msg for me . and u hardly call. if u really cared and cherish me , u wont act this way.. and now taht we are apart . thn so be it ba.. i cant do anthg rite now. cos i know ,there's no point to it. why do u hav to treat me this way? and saying u are busy all the time?. i know u are busy. but sometimes, do busy make u till it takes an hour to type and send me a message? someone whu really cared for his/her partner, dun act this way . but i think ,i came in the wrong time , so this happens.. and i know , we are not meant to be.and i said again and again that i will wait for you . but do u know , ur cold towards me , makes me really dunno should wait or not. and now i hav decided that i will wait. bt once again, u made things this way , i dunno what to say anymore. jus tell me a reason will you? why do u hav to be this way? if there's already someone in ur heart. can u jus say? or what ever the reason may b? why dun u be frank to me? why do u always hav to hide and making me feel tht i still got some hope wen u already seeing someone else?. i know i cant prefered to ur ex. and i know i am a nobody to you. all those words saying that u loved me. is that true? . do u ever loved me b4? well.. i dun care ler..for now on, please , if u hav got a girl , dun treat her like how u treated me , and i know u wont. cos i know u will cherish her.. like how i cherished u. but too bad, its a one sided love. dunno wen u will see this message . and i know after u read , i may not be able to contact u anymore.and mayb u read halfway jiu delete ler. nvm ba. at least i said what i wanna say. and yup , today is suppose to be our 1st month. but whu cares now? treat angline good. and dun ask her abt me . and i think u wont either. since u wan it this way . ok nvm. i wont waste my money and urs too , to msg each other again. still rmb u said u will bring me to all those i haben been to de places. and i think , it wont be able to come true lers.. all the best to u ba. i am done with what i hav to say. hope we wont see each other again. good luck in ur next relationship. through it all, all i hav to say is . i truely loves you . jus that u dun , so the chemical din work. so well , ha! i will be happy and wish you happy too. all the best yar. dun sms me anymore ler. i dun wanna see it . and i know uwont wan to do so either. all the sms are full of care . but seems that my care wasnt being felt , blame me for being a fool ba. and thanks for playing with my heart.and thanks for accepting my love wen u din even reall love me , and made me feel blessed wen i am really not.i thank god for me meeting you . may he bless you stranger . GOOD BYE FOREVER (:
from jinwen to you '
yup . i really need someone to brain wash my brain now.. whu can help?
hahahs.
take kare stranger jon. make it as though i NEVER knew u.
thank god for me meeting hhim and taught me a lesson.
love god..
blesses.
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