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2o51pm
well . today went to sch. but kinda angry lurhs..
i reached sch the first . this nvm.. wen i called tina asking her where she was, she said bus stop reaching in 2o mins. ok thn i was like thinking ok i am safe . later go sch no need wait so long till i eat m breakfast!
but its like totally opposite ok!
i waited for her for like 40 mins?
omg.! thn shuting and sharon reached.
so sian los. i was like starving like shit ok!
but well nvm..
well today angry also that jiejie los..
she was at her bf's hus the previous nite. but i dunno why she suddenly say she sick..
dunno lurhs. and angeline also.. said was wanting to come sch today and thurs de. but ended up both day also din come..
i even morning call her this morning..
but somehow , if u din come or what please at least inform me ma..
its like. i was expecting you to turn up , but in the end , i kept callin and callin , and what i got was wait and wait , thn in the end , lost promise los..
jus like penguin like that.
left with 1month16days.
after which , if nothin really happen to us.. thn byebye to you.
its like , somehow , please think of how people really feel.
are u really that worth to wait?
i realised after miss soh talk abt some ' sense ' to me , some pple are worth the wait and some are jus plenty , wasting ur bloody time. i tell you, i hav got a limit.
dun try my patience.
if i really get fed up with you . really , try me . i wont find anyone to settle , i will
i may look like a coward and sound like one . but wen i get really serious and angry , mark my words , TRY ME!
i really tried my very best to give in all i wan. and show as much as possible..
but seems like its a wasted thing, i would rather use it on someone else.
you know , it really hurts wen u are back yet not even a message from you..
u aint caring at all. i dun feel like anyone to you . not even stranger..
yar. its worst thn a stranger.. it hurts so much..
annabel said thigs rite , i treat frends good , but in the end , what i got was NOTHING. simply NOTHING AT ALL!
and you know what , it makes me happy. cos now i know whu are my true frends..and who aint.
well. jus feel that me and angeline's relation wasnt that good anymore.
think is bcos of my relationship thingy and also . sometimes i jus annoy her..
well.. nvm lurhs.. let all be what it is..
annabel also said. cos i told her js ans xl said i pang seh them
and she said that ' one person said that , might not be true . but thinking that both pple complains abt it , meaning that somethg is wrong '
and i thought about it the previous nite.
and really , i found myself , back to square 1.
i thought i hav been a good frend . but i found out that , all this is faked out.
frends might be laughin and joking with you wen bring with u . but u will nv know what they will say behind ur back
and i sometimes felt that , someone is stabbing me behind. and i feel hurt.
but this hurt made me realised that i wasnt myself at all.
i wanna give up soon.
please dun let me fall..
stop giving me that ' stress '
or isit i am creating these invincible stress myself?
ya i think so.. i am paranoid !
shit!
i am becoming so and so stupid!
you know what . my exam for fty , i got very very low points . i got b but teacher said it was somewhat a c .. meaning that i did badly thn in class test!
she also said it was my daily report that made me to a 50% in total.. hais.
how sad lurhs...
now my father , shout and shout.. damn fed up. knns
i dunno what , i am getting more and more stress up with myself and also very upset with everythg i do and see.
why am i feeling this way?
fark those guys whu really made me feel this way . and why , why did i get so low marks in sch?
i am so disappointed..
i thought i've done better.. but its like so opposite..
i dunno why , i am really falling soon.
i cant be happy , even if i am , do u think i really am happy inside?
tml gonna wake early again.. sometimes i've been thinking , why do i feel so lonely?
i feel so stress up suddenly. and it really makes me wanna slap someone somehow..
hais.. i really wanna kill myself this moment..
i am very tired of living somehow lurhs.. very tired..
especiallY WITH YOU!
fark all those shit u said.. no matter what i say now , u will never know.. cos u NEVER CARE!
why do i act as though i really need u ar?
i am so stubborn los..
i know i am tooooooooo ugly to be with you.
ya , u handsome .. go find someone better.. gogogog!
if u really wan it this way , jus let me know lurhs..
why keep everythg to urself and i keep think and think and think what ur ans will be.
even if u see this post , i dun think u will care for me , or even hav the urge to call me..
and think ar.. read half jiu off and gets angry in the end.
so be it ba.. angry jiu angry ba..
i am really very very very tired..
after 1 mth and 16 days , thats it..
u know what , i know u hav attitude , SO DO I?
u dun even think abt me , or even care.. all ur words are a lie to me somehow..
why do u hav to say all those mushy words wen u dun mean it this way.
please. i dun like mushy stuff.
i feel very...
i really feel like bashing someone right now..
i know angeline kinda feel annoyed by me and so our frendship becomes negative lers.
mayb i am thinking too much.. but i really feel this way!!
i am super sensitive leis..
what happend to me? why am i like that , why i feel so angry now!
hais! fark all those shit lurhs..
knns.... hais.. FUCK!!!!!!
fuck all those slut too..
whu do u think u are to spread rumours around again and again like noone's business
do u think its fun?
ya .. we hav a chalet on the 9th ..
an i am not going!
if i go , its bcos miss soh wanted me to..
i dun like to see all those bloody face of urs. and i know u dun wanna see mine to, so why care?
do u think u worth my attention?
fark off ok!
its like , what happened on the way , its not ur business.
me and her , the problem lies in me aint ur business. so MYOB we will settle it myself..
and also .... u are THIRD PARTY.
u do this to me . well god will repeat and make u feel this way!
wait and see!
anyways.. today miss soh taught us eyelash perming..
kinda fun.
if anyone wanna hav their eye lash permed and not scared of a newbie helpin u perm , please call this number (: 9**4***8 jinwen-
thanks
and also.. i am in a foul mood now.. so dun disturb me if possible..
sowie mum , i din go bl post camp today , kinda tired and kinda depressed lately.
although i still joke around , laugh all i wan like normal.
but , whu cares abt how i feel?
even the closest ' person ' dun care , why should i care?
i kept looking in the mirror. and asked,
WHO IS THIS GIRL STANDING RITE INFRONT AND STARING AT ME?
the answer?
THE USELESS...
it bleed again..
and lines are coming.. so dun be shocked..
i am too stress..
can someone help?
please , i dunfeel so good. i am crying without tears..
i am a GOOD FOR NOTHING FREAK.
a simply exam yet ......
HAIS!
kill me people.. i dun wanna live......
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