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- relationship issue again -
keep waiting for my pone to ring today . wishing he would at least send me a message.
guess i jus hoping for a false hope ba. hahas. think back , how stupid i was to keep waiting.
he knew i am still waiting for him. few days back , in msn he told me he still likes me. and kept aplogizing about the way he treated me in the past . i felt so warm suddenly. but i think , its all a lie.if he really cares and sowie abt what he did in the past , he wouldnt hav treated me again this time. thinkin that he would come back?. no way ba. i can tell no one abt my prob. cos no one wil care. its my prob afterall. even if someone would listen to me , they will say i am stupid and ask me to give it up. only one person will ask me to wait, angeline.
i dunno what the decision is. i wan to wait . but sometimes it see,s like i am waiting for the sun to rise from the west. and till pigs will fly. its like , he said he still likes me . but why no actions at all?
if u care abt someone and am sowie that he did wrong in the past , will u repeat it again?.
sometimes i tried to accept someone else. but its like , i am jus lying my love to him. and in the end , i failed a relation again. tell me what to do . should i wait for you or should we jus go our way? i really wish u could tell me what u are feeling now. i know i shouldnt disturb u that u are injured now. u know , how i really wan to take care of u . i wish to visit u and take kare of u . but seems so far away.. i am totally lost.
jus hope *S* will help me through . i really need help. B.Y.S~!
- school reopen -
well yday was the first day of sch . but i din go los . bleahs.~ cos too tired.
worked till late the day before los.
thn its like . i wanna sleep more cos dun hav the chance to sleep till so late anymore liaos. hahas.
hmmm... well luckil we've got another day off today. dunno what the reason also .. jus glad that i can sleep more again.. hahas.
tell u pple , i am getting plumber liaos. omg. keep eating at the wrong time. example? SUPPER!
omg. i keep eating mac since i work in toyrus. cos nth to eat liaos.. food court de food like. so ex and so little and its like nothing special to eat also.. hahs. so decided to hav student meal los. the pple there see me everyday also sian liaos. but no choice lurhs.. what to do.? i wan to support u all ma. if not u all close down le thn i eat what? hahas. broken english . soot! anyways was kinda sad wen i heard that my result was worst thn pple whu din really study for the test. hais.. what am i to do.? why suddenly i become so lousy? isit bcos of u or isit i din really put my heart in it? . i cant fail.. i cant break the promise that i said to my parents. and the hope of becoming a better person. i really mus work hard now. but hais.. i dun wan body massage liaos.. i wan make-up. its like miss soh say i cnnt make it if i choose that de. and i am like scared i would injured myself . cos mummy say bm will make u weak cos u need alot of strength to it. how?
i am getting so fustrated with so many thgs around me and i am the one whu think too much. i hate this feeling.
- the work issue -
these few days i look into the mirror. and realised..
I BECOMING PLUMBER LIAOS.!
and yes, getting older in looks liaos. many pimples popping out. hais..
SIANS!
omg. think is all those powerful chocolates and supper ba. hahas.
die ler lurhs.. i wanna go diet ..
yar . workin is tough. but fun is the most important thg los. (:
anyways today jiu shi 2 week working there liaos.. hmmm i mean counting the days where i din work also lurhs. hahs. hmmm the pple there treating me better liaos. so dun hab to worry. i am fine. and when can i get my pay?.
now m parents am meeting a critical prob liaos. so i really hav to help. althought cant help much , but i will try and do somethg good to help them so they wont get so stressed up. especially my dad.
and my bro? . hahs. idoit de lurhs.. i dun wish to say further.. go find out urself.
jus telling everyone that , sowie if i cant go out with u or somethg cos i really hav lots of prob to solve. and i cant stand aside and let my parents suffer isnt it? hope u all understand.
though i am still smiling like how i am before , look inside me , ask my questions , care for me . tahts all. u dun hav to buy a rose to make me happy , jus a few words of care is enff.
one of my sweetie pie . can see a smiley ?
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