- nowaday's prob abt me and the others -
hais..
sometimes jus dun understand what pple are thinking.
today they may treat u nice , tml , nasty.
what's wrong?. jus bcos i dun look as good as u ?
or smell as nice as u?
ya. i know my prob , attitude , negative thinking , and .. tok without even thinking..
words may hurt others , and urself..
agree?. some words might seems to be a joke to u . some may jus hurt pple around , without u knowing it.
thats what i so called discover and made by mistake.
now m and l are both unhappy with me. and i knew it..
soon , the whole group will hate me , curse me and make a shit out of m life.
ok.. let me explain this by sayin what really happen..
✖pls dun fall asleep (:✖
- happenings -
ok. first thg first.. on the day of chalet itself, i was like askin l a question , first , she din answer, thn i asked again , no answer again. so i gave up . thn wen i see both she and j wasnt tokin, i ask again with a louder voice. thn she ans me.. from there i understand 1 thg , somethg was really wrong..
ok . so i said nth . i acted like nth happened also.. thn we reached the chalet. i mean inside. we were sitting ouside , at the bbq area. thn we saw miss soh. so we chatted. and i smsed angeline whu was inside the roon den . asked her out.. she came out of cos.. thn she went towards l they all. instead of saying hi to me , she treated me like invincible. so i was ok.. nvm...thn she brought them to the room.. without asking me along.. only sharon asked me in.. ok. this was fine. but miss soh saw me sitting at a corner alone, she came to me , asked me what happened.. i wasnt wanted to cry at first .. but wen she looked into my eyes , knowing that i wasnt fine , actaully she knows everythg jus by lookin at my eyes. she says , my eyes cant lie. so i started to cry.. i know it may seems childish. but from pri sch , i dun hav the fate to hav frends. cos of my attitude. or jus that i jus dun hab the fate los.. hmmm. * ahem * so i told her everythg , she really tok sense into me los.. but i cant help but cry lurhs.. thn she gave me 2 piece of tissue to wipe my tears , not wantin me to let them see that i cried. oh ya . and also a nugg to cheer me up. ok.. so.. they came back to the pit. thn this time , angeline saw me.. thn said hi , thn tok 2 me, was glad lurhs.. hmm thn the malay girls in my class arrived, bring the food in so that we can cook and eat ler.. thank god .. but i din eat much also.. cos i was kinda emo .
- cooking time -
ok. so i helped to cook los.. ok first i was wantin to help miss soh cook de. so i took the tong? lols dunno how to spell. hmm thn bbq the chickenwings los.. thn m2 came an jus say she wanna help out also , jus grap m tong los.. thn i was like .. ' what the '.... but well nvm.. so i went to take a plate and like fan so it get cooked faster ma.. so i fan los..
whu knows, the say very smokey.. ok.. first thg first.. they asked me to fan de. now the say smokey.. so nvm also..
ok i stop fanning awhile , now i fan again .. thn not to their direction.. thn m2 scold me ' jinwen , dun fan liaos lurhs.. told u smoke liaos.. u wan u fan urself .... ' ok this really made me mad.. so i decided to leave earlier. kinda du lan also liaos.. ok.. so i told miss soh i leaving .. she asked .. ' why ' .
I ' cos tml working '
MS ' orh ok . u wait awhile i also leaving at 7 plus, need to fetch my daughter for tution '
I ' orhs '
so i helped out again . m2 went to eat , so i took over . cos only angeline cooking it ma.. so help los.. but ar.. tell u , it was really fun lurhs. jus tink she is a great leader with good knowledge. everythg also know.. she even got praised by sessionhead and other teachers that her skilss of cookin was good. hahas. good ma like that. well. time pass.. i hav to go. so i said goodbye to everyone , BUT! before i go , i ate 4 nuggs . hahas.. was kinda hungry lurhs.. so ate somethg b4 i go los..
- leaving the chalet -
on the way back , miss soh told me alot of thgs.. first thg is the unhappiness abt the other teachers.. - i wont say it here. as i promised her not to lers - and also , the main purpose of opening a chalet. - farewell for miss ng - kinda miss her now.. though i dun really like her lurhs..
hmmm.. was ver shockin upon hearing this news.. miss soh was kind enff to ask her husband to drive me to the nearest mrt station to take the train home and not wanting me to take bus alone as its kinda late and dangerous alone. i really thank god i have her as my ' GUARDIAN ANGEL ' really. someone whu u can relie on wen u needed , a listening ear and a helping hand. she's always there for me.. although she is my teacher. but to her , we are her kids. ((: hmm ok.. so i waved goodbye to them and went home.
- on the way on train -
on my way home. angel called me.. askin me why i left so early . so i told her los..
and scolded her why she came so late . she was the one whu asked me go de. .now she late herself.. so damn idoit hor? lols. but nvm lurhs.. at least now i get to see her in sch. am very glad to see her coming to sch , attendin every lesson now.. ((: ok thn i recieved a call from my ex. not that fcuking jon lurhs.. hmm thn tok abt job again... keep askin him join us. thn keep like wait wait wait.. pls , i dun hav the whole day for u lurh.. till the day wen u wan the job , pple dun wan hire ler thn blame me.. hais.. dunno what's wrong wif pple nowadays also lurhs..
- wed, yday and today's happenings -
lets tok abt wed first. ok! it was my first day of sch , din go sch on mon , too tired . tue , day off. so wed . the atmosphere was fine .. but somehow , still somethg wrong somewhere . i came to class first . cos i din wanna be late for lesson as i reached sch at 850 amm , thn tie m hair finish , 901 . thn i was like . OMG! runnnnn.. thn i open the door , i saw the teacher , not same , din see b4 , i said sowie , i walked out .. thn my chairman , shouted ' JINWENNNNNNNN! ' thn i was like , looking outside , ' whu call me sia ' . thn i turn back into the class room , PAI SEH LURHS! hahahas. can u imagine that? lols..
ok.. thn settle down . 10 mins later thn they came . but i was sitting infront . with shuting and sharon. we joked los.. thn i turned behind , looked at l thn i put a sign of like ' gonna kill u alive ' ok this action goes ... ok . show me a good sign.. thumbs up lurhs! ok thn i like place at my neck there . move it slowly from left to rite.. got it ma? thn she was like .. abnormal.. she jus smile so faked de smile.. thn i know .. this is really wrong....! ok nvm nvm.. so we went for next lesson . bodaymassage theory.. i jus sat beside angeline , veryyyyyy quiet.. ok. wen u realise , a very noisy person , suddenly becomes sooooo quiet , the first thg that u will think of is? .. ' rainning soon ' or ' omg , sun is gonna rise from the east! ' or even ' pig's gonna hav wings and fly free like birds ' wth... ok.. carry on. * ahem * angeline din tok 2 me either.. ok. l and j came sch on mon . and they hav got notes on some of the points . know what?.. she lent to angeline , and not me . wen i look at angeline's book , she stared at me . i mean j. ok nvmnvm... i dun wan it either.. k let this matter rest.
thn after sch , we went to eat. i was quiet also.. thn they say they wanna go tampines mall. but i din wanna go lurhs.. they din ask me to go also.. nono should say , they din tok to me also.. ok. skip this.. important point.. ok going to take bus... i pei angeline take 31 to the tanah merah mrt there. thn she recall that sharon wanted to take to bugis. but she already left.. so i run towards the overhead bridge . thn shouted ' sharon , u wan take here de bus ma? i going take green line also.. ' thn she was like thinking , thn m2 jiu like psyco her , ' dun wan lurhs.. come come . pei us better ' thn i was like thinking ' STFU can?! TMD ' ok .. i din say lurhs.. thn in the end, sharon kena her psyco los.. go with them .. thn i was like felt quite weird liaos.. thn i asked angeline , she said i think too much.. ok i did think too much.. but still thinking that somethg is sure wrong here. i think that she knew what's going on , jus that she dun wanna tell me.. and reading my previous post , i quarreled with my damn farking ex. thn i was sad ler. so i din think too much abt the frends thingy also.. instead . stress of my farking ex . so i asked rosanne to read my post . she gave her comment abt me ..
ROSANNE : impatient , always want ans immediately .
ANGELINE : attitude , temper
EELIN : grumblin abt others wy they not happy with me
JIEJIE : saying me shouting at her on that day we went to harbourfront. cos i was stress up with both parties that , m2's bf was very anti social and that the others cant stand it . and somemore arranged to hav dinner tgh . and scared things may turn out bad, quarrel in short. thn i was like . i asked her where she was , she say reaching , 20 mins later , ' where are u? ' reaching ler.! thn i say ' faster can not? ' thn she tot i was shouting at her..
SHARON : nth , jus that she thinks i need time to change
L and M2 : attitude , the way i tok , dun think b4 i tok , hurt pple's feelings , no respect .
MISS SOH : u are a sweet , helpful and caring girl , jus that sometimes wen u tok , u intent to hurt pple without u even noticing it. mayb a change might be good , and be more matured. think positively! jus do as what i say , sure u will be better.
FCUKIN JON : i think u should change ur attitude , getting bad to worst
ok.. no respect , i dun agree. cos i am elder thn them , they should respct me . ok respect has 2 kinds.. respect becos i am elder and also respect each other's so called rites. meaning no shooting to the heart. i also dunno lurhs.. ok. so thats my weak point los...
what do u think abt my attitude?. leave me a tag ok! *** continue with thurs and fri soon (: .. ***
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