i really i was dead now ,
leaving all those unhappyness and this stupid complicated world.
i dun understand why i became like this today.
i notice the change in me ..
i feel nth at all now ..
i used to be a very look-upon- tml tat kinda person..
now , i jus hate wen day is gonna end ..
i hate my sch , i hate my school mates , i hate studying..
cos of u pple , i really hate all that i used to love alot.
my wish of getting into a good spa and work there , hav vanish..
i feel so reckless now , i feel nth to anythg anymore..
i feel so much like crying now ..
what happen to me lately?..
a super sudden mood swing..
what happen to my attitude as well?..
i used to love studying so so much ...
now i jus feel this course is so damn dead ..
in sch , i hav lunch alone . last time i used to hav it with so many pple ,
now i study alone , tok 2 myself ...
projects ? alone as well..
what am i suppose to do?...
i did the same old stupid thg again..
cut and more cuts ..
i feel so stress..
i wish i wont wake wen i sleep ...
die in my sleep...
its better thn lookin at thgs i dun wanna see..
can god jus bring me to his side?
i dun wanna live anymore...
this life is so such in a war... i dun wanna live my life this way..
i wanna change , i wanna leave this place ...
i tried to be happy , i tried to ignore thgs they did , i avoid listening to the thgs they say , but , whats the use?..
i am so tired of what i am now..
in such a state ...
from pri 5 , everythg jus changes..
my frends dun like me , getting into quarrels , getting parents to go down sch and tok 2 teachers and ask the kids to stop disturbing me , going home with tears ....
i am so sick of this life...
i wanna end it soon..
i wanna end everythg soon...
i dun wanan plak back those things again...
i jus wanna close my eyes , and nv wake..
i jus wanna die right now........
My world my life
